Finally, it has come to this stage

Well, it almost the ends of the year now, trial exams are over, everyone is relaxed and awaits the real SPM ...

Suddenly, a question that many would ask, 'What is next, after SPM' ... ' College or A-Levels or even STPM' ... but one things for sure ... that everyone will pursue thier own path in their life ...

I feel ... a bit sad of course ... and lonely ... I have questioned myself, what have I done for the past years, what achievements I made ... It makes me just worse just by thinking about it.

A girl which I really loved ... doesn't loved me ... or should I say she didn't even did ... I would really hope she would have a great future and people who cherish her by her side ... because I won't be there anymore ...

It's really a pain, having the girls u love in front of you, and yet she still treats you as if you are transparent. I would really wanted to take care of her, giving her all the care that she may need ... But the door of her HEART are not meant to open for me ...

It may be my fault since I rammed into her myself ... but the feeling that I had for her, it's no false ...

It's truly saddening to separate with all the friends after all this while, but it's really just a junction in life that you have to pass through ... I really feel lonely all of the sudden and afraid that I may not be able to handle the challenge ahead.

All friends I have are going the opposite way that I am heading. Having to say goodbye makes me feel empty and a sudden fear that rushes through my spines, telling me how hard is it to really step on to a new stage of life where you leave all those things behind and take a step forward.

However, I made a promise to myself, I would success in life, and make the greatest effort to bring Happiness to my family. And by only then, I will really hope for a true relationship with someone special ...

For now, it would seem that I am a little bit devastating, but I would do my best to pursue my future and get a better life for my family.