Finally, it has come to this stage

Well, it almost the ends of the year now, trial exams are over, everyone is relaxed and awaits the real SPM ...

Suddenly, a question that many would ask, 'What is next, after SPM' ... ' College or A-Levels or even STPM' ... but one things for sure ... that everyone will pursue thier own path in their life ...

I feel ... a bit sad of course ... and lonely ... I have questioned myself, what have I done for the past years, what achievements I made ... It makes me just worse just by thinking about it.

A girl which I really loved ... doesn't loved me ... or should I say she didn't even did ... I would really hope she would have a great future and people who cherish her by her side ... because I won't be there anymore ...

It's really a pain, having the girls u love in front of you, and yet she still treats you as if you are transparent. I would really wanted to take care of her, giving her all the care that she may need ... But the door of her HEART are not meant to open for me ...

It may be my fault since I rammed into her myself ... but the feeling that I had for her, it's no false ...

It's truly saddening to separate with all the friends after all this while, but it's really just a junction in life that you have to pass through ... I really feel lonely all of the sudden and afraid that I may not be able to handle the challenge ahead.

All friends I have are going the opposite way that I am heading. Having to say goodbye makes me feel empty and a sudden fear that rushes through my spines, telling me how hard is it to really step on to a new stage of life where you leave all those things behind and take a step forward.

However, I made a promise to myself, I would success in life, and make the greatest effort to bring Happiness to my family. And by only then, I will really hope for a true relationship with someone special ...

For now, it would seem that I am a little bit devastating, but I would do my best to pursue my future and get a better life for my family.

holiday......bad for me

this holiday, i did a lot of things( i think ), one of it is going back to school to play frisbee with some frenz...

its hard to forget that day, i woke up early that day, went to school with some frenz ( yeong yaw, kia wee and choon hiang ) by rapid. they have their works to do and me, i am just going to school for some exercise.

that day, the game started early since everyone is punctual ( except for someone ), we started at 8.00 am.

we played two games and its both a good game.

the game ended when a sprang my leg...ahhh, its painful, really painful. thanks to ka fai's first aid, it healed quite fast. i feel so fun but still feeling bad.

now, i know that warm-up are important before a game and i will try to increase my stamina....

mid-year holiday...and exam....

its holiday again...my frenz told me to focus but i can't. they tell me after holiday is exam, so take my time to study through the tough subjects, like chemistry and physics.

it is a surprise that one of my frenz told me that i hav matured...hav i?

i ask myself whether hav i changed? i was temptated...i am glad that i hav grown ( not like i not growing but at least someone is watching)
wakaka.....

now i need to be more focus lah...be more "concentrated"

mid-year holiday...and exam....

new year holiday-------finished

haiz... The 9 day holiday has ended. To me, it is like a station for me to rest and prepare for new challenges. After holiday, the first obstacle is "EXAM". The first exam this new year, it shuold be a great experience. I hope by this exam i can learn new things and will increase my knowledge of F4 lifestyle.

Wat do u usually do in holidays. This question seems easy but to think deeply, what have u accomplished in the holiday, that is a question. To be honest, i haven't done anything out of the box in the holiday but i hope in the future i can make a difference in my current lifestyle.

This new year is quite boring, but the good part is i met a new friend. She is a friend of my friend, Andy. Her name is Erene, she is a nice person and friendly. She givex me a nice warmth feeling, just like we have met somewhere before, altough we first met, we talked a lot. It doesn't feel like we are strangers.

Humans are unexplainable object of the universe. Their existence is a mystery for all this years. Even though by science, they still can't tell wat is the purpose of human in this world. Is it destruction or peace? Who can answer my question, I think those who can may not be in this world. To be a science student, i feel like science in one way it is interesting such as the topic metaphysic that i just finished for my oral presentation, but on the other hand, science is a field of unknown subjects that u may encounter in your everyday life, it is like a bond with you and me. Rumors of ghost and spirits, they are part of our daily life, but are they science, can they be proven?

THAT IS A QUESTION

wat a boring day

today most of my teacher are absent, not that they are sick or something, they are busy doing their own things. But we are unlucky because the whole day we only had there subjects, and two of them are the most boring subject that is moral and sejarah. HAHA..........why do i say is unlucky, because our teacher are very responsible, they have preparation for us. Haiz...........too bad, but i wasted my whole day at skool doing nothing but staring at the ceiling and making some drawings.

I like to draw things, just a thing that i would do when i am bored. My brain suddenly came out an idea of an image and i will start skeching the drawing. Maybe i am a born artist, cuz all my drawings are good except the fact that they are black and white.

Other than that, today my class ceiling is being repaint and the smell tells us that it is still new. We had to hold our breath the whole day.

Today had been a good day, since i got time to blog. HAHA.

thaipusam

today is a public holiday but it is the same for me everyday. haha.....By talking to my pal Andy, he make think back my childhood memories, it is good to have such a good memories, i remember all my 1st time's and while i look back at my past, i felt that life is not that easy, for me to grow until this stage.
i remembered when i 1st ride a bicycle, i learned how to ride i bike at seven years old, i personally think it is to old for me to learn that, but i put my effort on it. it was fun, my father gave me aspiration, he tell me that as long as you work hard, you will be successful. It proves that he was right, i ride my bike everyday, and eventually i have mastered the technique of riding a bike.
my father is a good guy, he is a good father, he spend most of his time with us and not his work. the lost of him will make a great difference in my life, i dunno how to express my feelings towards him. i am how i am now because of him. He thought me all the things I know, and he is always my target because he is always my mentor.
i cannot express my sorrow through words or tears, but my heart hurts everytime i think about my father, it feel like being stab or being torn apart, it is very painful.
i will now start a new life and i will be strong than before facing my challenges of life. I will certainly succeed in my future.